"Aniquilation of mind"

today i only can write in english. i'm sorry for that ones who dont understand but i can't express my feelings on my mother language... and im sorry too if i make some errors im not so good...

i will express my psicologic death, today i wake up from my dream and died once again, this time was really painfull to see, whats happend to me...
i left something i wrote now, i dont know if many people who see my blog will understand my feelings but its ok... i can, and that is important... please dont think a lot as i do or worse you understand why i am dead today i nearly reaching madness on my way... take a look and see what fucking surviving mean to me...

my thougs are floating in my mind
my head is nearly feeling them
i have a cloud of feelings i cant stop to think
i dont have anymore question for me
my suffering have my wrath
i have died so long ago
i can feel my emotions trough them
living in a way so deep
feeling in a way so smooth
seek the emptiness in me
founding the deepest depression
the worst nightmare i am
the monster i cant kill
who lives in me

i can be the perfect person
rounding my life with depression
reaching the sky above my eyes
is feeling the way i survive
empty, dark, screaming inside
i can be perfection above my sky
but the screamings are getting worse
and i nearly die
physical is cold
such as i
i try to leave
but its difficult, and you can see it in my eyes
the mirror of life, my mirror of death
the path of physical for the path to die
is floating in a smoke so smooth
you can hardly see

feeling death on me
i can feel when im alive
but today i died
directly in my dreams
is my ocult sight
telling me "you need me"
yes in deed, i cant fight you anymore
to feel a good way of living
later i will regret what i am doing
but feeling this way i preffer to pay
the death is near me taking my life away
so then take me but make me happier
destroy myself for worse i will make it
take my soul one more time
i'm sick with suffer
all the times, clocks dont ear me
even the people
so why do i care? if they dont to?
i will die on a better way feeling happy
more than one day

see you next time...

Times...

Para variar um pouco ah muito tempo que nao escrevo no meu blog... tambem nao tenho passado assim muito tempo na internet. Tenho andando para ca e para la com o meu namorado e os amigos... como sempre começou bem e ta a ir. A fluir como tem de ser...

Vida passa entre os olhos de todos
Passa sem saber o porque
Pensa em coisas que nao devia pensar
Porque?
Porque a vida nao é facil de viver
Porque temos sempre caras de cus no poder
Mas é so o poder que conta?
Depende do poder de querer
Tudo tem a ver com jogos de mente
Tudo o que eu vejo agora a minha volta é insolente
Quero um dia para viver bem e sem tristeza
Toda a minha vida foi dessa natureza
Chega de sofrimento e dor
Se for para continuar esta vida de esplendor
Prefiro morrer do que sentir sempre esta dor
Sofrer é algo que vem do fundo
que magoa quem tem
que fica com raiva e odio
que quer destruir tudo o que ve a volta
mas para que?
apenas para curar o sofrimento que sente
se sente as outras pessoas tambem
calma todos nos temos
mas a minha tem sentimento
que a calma ja nao me acalma
que o tempo so passa
que vida tão indeferente
a de uma mente com alma
alma que vai e vem constante
viajas pelo astral alarmante
de anjos e demonios
num estante chegas la
apenas a calma de outra calma me acalma
Quero a calma que nao tenho na minha alma
quero a calma dos dias frios
Frios como o gelo do sabio do R/C
muita gente diz que ele é feio e negro
mas eu acho a vida dele muito mais empolgante

Changing mind with music "wednesday 13"

My home sweet homicide
My father is dead my mother is out of her mind!
I'm gona stay in this chair
Watching their homicide
My baby is here today
lets get the devil in me
and get the home sweet homicide

ok... vou por a letra do "home sweet homicide"
um pouco melhor que a minha ahah

"My Home Sweet Homicide"

I've got nothing to lose that's why I'm with you
My X-Ray glasses don't lie
And the best thing about our future
Is knowing that I'm gonna die

It's a simple mistake that anyone could make
And I guess I won the grand prize
A lifetime supply of misery
My home sweet homicide

And I'm so love sick, sick of you
I guess I'll see you in hell
But I'm sure you'd ruin that too

You'll be the death of me
Baby you're my home sweet homicide

You're the reason why I never even tried
You're the biggest star in your own mind
No anti-dote, it's a fucking joke
And I'll never get out alive

Now on the count of three
Won't you bury me
Close the casket and say goodbye
And its ashes to ashes, dust to dust
My home sweet homicide

And I'm so love sick, sick of you
I guess I'll see you in hell
But I'm sure you'd ruin that too

You'll be the death of me
Baby you're my home sweet homicide

And I'm so love sick, sick of you
I guess I'll see you in hell
But I'm sure you'd ruin that too

You'll be the death of me
Baby you're my home sweet homicide

Music is my inspiration for feelings...
and Tony's help ^^ Thank You Brother :D**

Blha... aburrece me escrever mais... por isso logo apareço por ca para explicar mais coisas ou para deixar algo que tenha escrito.. Fiquem bem (melhor que eu)